Last night at our flat we were bored and we got a little crazy. We pulled back the furniture, plugged in the Xbox Kinnect and played some crazy sports-based games as a form of flat bonding. And it was great! So much fun!
Yet, dare I say it, it is the kind of thing I normally avoid. Just like dance, just like writing fiction. It feels too risky, it feels too much like hard work, and way out of my comfort zone. Part of the problem is I like doing things well. And these things do not come naturally to me. So more often than out I choose not to partake.
Even last night my flatmate had to coerce and drag me to give it a go. I was content to watch, and cheerlead and laugh on the sidelines, but do it myself? Oh no! However eventually I gave it a go, and I had so much fun. Of course at the beginning I felt so awkward, but slowly that awkwardness was overtaken with a sense of freedom and wild abandon, things my carefully controlled and structured self rarely feel. In that moment the freedom was just what I needed. My cares and worries melted away. I felt connected, alive, vibrant.
Lately I have been reading The Rebel Chick's Mystic Guide by Lisa Marie Selow. In her book she has this brilliant quiz that helps you identify what gets in your way from doing the things you love. She identifies four main blockages:
- Low self-confidence or self-esteem
- Being overly concerned about what others would think
- Being too focussed on the other people in your life to the detriment of yourself
- Too much socialisation and not enough hard work
When I did the quiz I came out with the first two blockages as the main things standing in my way. Not surprisingly when I look back at our flat bonding experience last night, the same two obstacles were the fears and thoughts running through my mind that almost prevented me from giving it a go.
What about you? Which blockages do you identify with? Do you remember doing something recently that felt a little crazy/risky, but ended up filling you with a deep sense of joy. Would love to know! Share below!
Featured image: 'Dancing' by 'dicktay2000' on Flickr.